Non-Mom Time...

So today was the day that I had 8 whole hours to myself.  Even though I was plenty busy, I had lots of time for thinking...at one point, I had to get out and get some Rubbermaid bins so I could finish organizing the closet...as I was stopped at the light, I looked to my left and there was a mom in a mini van looking miserable in her gray sweatshirt, with her son looking all bored staring out the window...I just couldn't help but laugh.  Motherhood...oh how it just takes the life right out of you sometimes.  Probably the only reason that I could even laugh and not cry was because I was in the car by myself...without bickering...without the powerpuff girls playing on the DVD player...without Adler crying and Ayris screaming for me to play the Lego song for the 100th time...

You give up a lot to be a mom...right now there are facebook statuses floating around:

"To all the unselfish moms out there who traded eyeliner for dark circles, salon haircuts for ponytails, long showers for quick showers, late nights for early mornings, designer bags for diaper bags, and WOULD NOT change a thing. Lets see how many moms repost this. Moms who don't care about whatever they gave up, instead....... LOVE what they get in return. Repost this if you're a mom and LOVE your KIDS!! ♥ ♥"

"I've carried a child within my body, i have comforted a baby on my chest, i have kissed booboos, been puked & peed on, woke up in the middle of the night to a feverish child & more. but i wouldn't have it any other way. my body isn't magazine perfect, but when i look in the mirror.....I see a mom, and there is no greater honor or blessing.....make this your status if you're proud to be a mom ♥"

And it's all true...I was never going to be that mom that went to Target in her yoga pants and no makeup...but in addition to roaming the Target aisles in my sweats and no makeup, I have also found myself toting along a child in his underwear (sometimes I'm just not in my right mind)...my showers are more like rinse offs...I've started getting the same damn tangle at the nape of my neck that I used to get when I was 4...except now, I don't have a mom who forces me to sit through getting it brushed out on the weekends (Mom, I would be all for this now...please start making weekend visits to get the tangles out because I'm doing a suck*ss job of brushing my hair anymore)...I actually just broke down and went to Fantastic Sam's for a haircut the other day...Chris has been questioning for years why I make him go to the cheapie places when I pay the big bucks to get my hair cut and colored...well lately people...I just don't care.  No one sees me anyway...instead of losing weight like I used to in the past, I just went out and bought bigger jeans *gasp* because if the weight ain't fallin off on it's own, it probably ain't fallin off these days...I wipe so many butts each day, I sometimes get distracted...the other day, I went to bite one of my fingernails and smelt poop...yeah, I still had some on my knuckle from when Adler was going all crazy doing his ninja kicks (he gets to kicking so hard he'll knock his foot in his poopy diaper and then kick my hand with his poop foot)...so back to my original thought...you do give up a lot to be a mom...and life obviously completely changes...which is why it was amazing to have these 8 hours to myself today...being able to get something accomplished without 540 interruptions...running an errand and not waiting 10 minutes for the troops to load in and out of the car...without lugging 20 pounds of baby and carseat on my arm, buckling and unbuckling kids...

And then there's Katy Perry's new song "Teenage Dream"...and the only reason I'm addicted is because it's been the theme song for 90210's new season...and when I hear it...I think of the show...sunshine...beaches...being thin...having fun...just living the ultimate life...I have my 20 hours of nighttime shows to watch because I have to live vicariously through all kinds of people's lives...the teeny bopper girls on 90210...because really, I still haven't figured out that I'm not a highschooler (I keep questioning if when I'm 80 I'll still be reading my gossip magazines and going to see Miley Cyrus movies (or whoever the new hotness is then)...the tight knit family from Brother's and Sisters (oh how I envision the kids growing up all close like this)...delivering babies like Addison Montgomery from Private Practice (too bad you need a degree for this crap, I'd be delivering babies tomorrow if I could)...dating Dr. House and his brooding self (Chris knows this...I've had two dreams about House...he's SO smart...and broken and I'm sure I could fix him)...Glee...which brings me back to my high school choir days...the list goes on and on...and believe me people...I have told anyone who will listen that I feel so fortunate to live the life that I do...sometimes I feel like I have it so good, that something bad is bound to happen...but at the end of the day...no matter how awesome it is to wipe butts and brush teeth...say prayers and make meals...I just need some non-mom time...and today...I got that...and it was good.  Now I can go into tomorrow a new mom...one who is going to be happily awaiting the first butt wipe! 

Seriously though...motherhood is like nothing else...last night Ayris started to say something about someone being mean to her at school but then decided she didn't want to talk about it...so I said something like, but we're friends so you can tell me anything...and she goes "Mom, we're not friends...I love you way more than I could any friend!"  THAT feeling you can't get without having kids =)