Every single pregnancy I have an array of dreams that make me question if I should even be having kids...they are usually THAT bad. I think I started a dream journal with Asher? and didn't end up writing more than two of them down so I'll use the blog as my pregnancy journal with this one...because lately, I've had nothing to write about!
It started with me sweeping up leaves in some neighbors house (and Chris, you'll be happy to know it was in a NICE neighborhood...with huge houses and backyards with pools)...I'm not sure why I was doing that...in the dream, it felt as though it was my fault the leaves were in the house? I kept wondering about the kids and wanted to check on them but in the back of my mind knew that they were playing downstairs with the neighbor's kids.
The next thing I know, I'm out by the pool and am asking my friend Jill if she killed/shot her mother...and she said yes. And then I said, "but you didn't kill your father did you?"...and she told me she had. I felt sick to my stomach and wanted to cry but didn't want her to think I thought she was crazy. (Jill is my hairdresser in real life and she wouldn't kill anyone...which is what always makes these dreams unbelievable). She asked me if there was anyone I wanted to kill and I said no.
The next thing I know, I'm in the hospital identifying her dad (whom I've never met) and the nurses tell me that she actually killed her whole family, her mom, dad, brother and sister. Now I'm bawling because I couldn't stomach the idea of this and she isn't around so it's okay. When they lifted the sheet off her dad, he immediately got up off the table and was alive (barely)...turns out the baby brother was alive and so was her older sister (of which had a child)...come to find out, all of the family had signed up to allow themselves to be shot because it was what Jill wanted and she had convinced them it was the right thing to do.
That was pretty much the end of it...I heard a TV show playing and that woke me up. Which coincidentally is another story. I'm paranoid as it is but when I'm pregnant, that gets thrown into overdrive. The other night (Chris was out of town which makes me even more paranoid) around 2:30 or so in the morning, I hear the TV downstairs...I leave it on on the nights that he's gone but I turn the sound off. So I jump out of bed freaked out by it being on and the sound continued until I reached the loft where I can look downstairs, the sound system was off...as though it had never been on. Well great, now I had to add ghosts to my list of already irrational fears. My thoughts about that incident kept me up for a good 45 minutes after the fact. I went over every possible explanation for why it could have turned on all by itself and came up with nothing. Well this morning, I realized the TV show was coming from the laptop on Chris' side of the bed. When Chris travels, Ayris usually stays up late in my room watching some netflix show on the laptop with headphones. When she's done, she just shuts the lid and I'll unplug the headphones and lay the computer on the floor. The show had started back up this morning and that's where the noise was coming from. SO...perhaps the other night, it was the laptop, but the loudness was just turned down so I didn't realize it was coming from this room? Even though it's still unsettling to think that my hibernating laptop is playing on it's own with the lid shut, I tend to think laptops are a little wonky and with a mind of their own versus actual sound systems turning themselves on.
So see...I seriously turn crazy when I'm pregnant...only at night though =)
I see I'm not the only one dreaming crazy dreams tonight...Ayris just said:
"Why did Sabine and Sophie and Lucy want to move into town with us? I think we should get rid of Lucy and her cage and Sophie and Sabine so we can sweep the dust behind there."
I'm with her on Lucy (anyone want a bearded dragon to love?) but the girl would never get rid of her cats...she'd have no one but Asher to torture! Anyway, she's back to sleep now...so she must've been dreaming it.
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